i’ve got to fold because these hands are just too shaky to hold
i know that you just want to see me get up upset. my world turned upside-down, so what did you expect? my heart is aching, and i’ve never felt this bad. i pinch myself to check that all of this is real.as of today, i’ve realized that i don’t care. well, it’s not that i don’t care, because i’ll always care for that person. it’s that i can’t care. i need to move on, at last. it’s so hard and some of my friends don’t understand that. well, as long as this road has been, i’m finally putting an end to it. sometimes it’s just too hard to give up, especially when you have so much faith in one person. at times i wonder what’s wrong with me, or if i had acted differently, what would be different. i guess the hardest thing is knowing that person isn’t coming back, and that hurts. fuck, i don’t know. i just don’t want to seem all desperate and bitter. blah.
today was actually pretty okay. i didn’t do my chemistry homework, and now i have a D+. damn. oh well, i’ll be okay. i rode the bus by myself, which i was totally dreading. but i ended up being the second stop so it’s all good. behind the wheel was good today, i went first and i parallel parked. haha. now i have to start my journalism essays, finish up my pyramid, and finish an extra credit worksheet. haha, that seems like a lot of work. oh well, i don’t think i’ll sleep much tonight.
